There’s a trend going around on social media where people are writing what they would tell their younger self. I think it’s a good idea to reflect on the past and present and I like the concept. Here’s my letter to my younger self.
I know you feel like life is kicking you when you’re down and school is a drag. In your condition with anxiety, it’s definitely not a pleasant ride, but that doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy yourself in the good times. It feels like the end of the world when your friends leave you out and you’re an outcast, but the ones who truly care will still be there for you even in later life. The ones who don’t? Well, let’s just say there’s no need to worry about them because I promise you that one day, they won’t matter to you.
Don’t panic too much over your GCSEs. Just do your best. Believe it or not, it’s possible to actually have successes without them. While it’s important you do the best you can, don’t make yourself ill over them because there’s more than one road to your goal, even if we have to take the pretty way.
Those boys you fell for? They’re nothing special. You may think they are the world but you’re looking through rose tinted glasses and shielding yourself from the reality. Don’t get too attached because you’ll get hurt and it was all for nothing. Spend more time with friends, study more and keep writing. It’ll open up to some pretty amazing opportunities in the future.
It feels like you’re trapped and alone with anxiety and depression but trust me, you’re not a freak. In fact, 1 in 4 people suffer with mental health issues, so you’re really not alone. Does it get better? It does. No fairy godmother will magic it away, but you learn to cope and you learn to deal with situations. Take a deep breath, close your eyes, exhale. It’s going to be okay.
Anything that’s happened in the past shouldn’t ever define who you are. Especially when it was never your fault. Bad situations take place in life and they can take their toll on us, but never let it change who you are or label you. Never look back with regret or fear. Just look back and see how far you have come before looking to the present and the future.
One last thing. Learn to love yourself more and stop putting yourself down. Because even though it feels like nobody cares about you, there’s a good chance that they do and if they don’t, then detach yourself from them and know that there will be people in your life who will actually care about you a lot, as surprising as it may seem to you. You’re not as bad as you think you are. It’s okay to not be the same as everyone else. If we were all the same then that would be boring. Embrace yourself and don’t follow the crowd. It’ll be a bumpy ride but what’s a rollercoaster if it only goes in a straight path? It’s going to be okay.